The last two days I’ve been feeling sort of under the weather so there has been a cessation of activity.

While relaxing, I decided to read through a couple of my personal journals from a few years back. I find it truly amazing how much has changed in a few short years. In those days, I was struggling on so many fronts. There was my work–big time, house hunting, custody battle/mediation/court, family issues, emotional stuff–relationships, health irritations, frustrations and stressors etc..

Angst is written on almost every page of my journals during those years. In dealing with it, I wrote long prayers, messages of faith, quotes and readings that spoke to me, and concern upon concern. No wonder I had high blood pressure! (There were good things too, like my first grandchild being born) It was a complicated dance of real life mixed with faith and my belief in God. His steadying force helping me keep my sanity.

Anyways, it is a joy to see what has changed and improved since those days and how peaceful my life is now. When we are in the midst of something hard, we can’t always see the forest for the trees. The answers to our struggles come over time. Some things can’t be rushed.

I am exceedingly thankful for the blessings that have come my way. God has answered my prayers though sometimes it has been in a round-about fashion. Always, we make a choice. We will choose to either learn from the problem or we will choose to become resentful of the problem. One brings life, the other brings hopelessness.

Don’t ever give up. Trust and believe.