The End of the Road: A Story of Redemption

A Christmas Tale by N. L. Brumbaugh

The man made his way to the gate; head bent, trench coat braced to the wind, shivering. Yes, this was the place. Overgrown with ivy, its black metal spikes pierced the darkness of the moonlit night. Its ancient posts signified a defense against the outside world. A mangy dog padded twenty paces behind him, paused, then sat itself down on its haunches. The mutt’s head followed the man’s every movement. Its ears twitched in alert reflex as they twisted toward the train rails to and from town.

Resisting the urge to launch a rock at the hound, the man peered at the gate, remembering. Was it a decade or two decades ago that this place had been called his home? where he had once supped with others of like-minded thinking. Desperate straits had brought him back. It had come to this. This was a last resort. The end of the line.

Wooo-woot. He could just barely hear the engine whistle. Must be the midnight rail. His hand fumbled around as it searched to locate what he was looking for and found himself unable to contain its unwelcome tremor. Could he do this thing? Can a person ever make peace with the past? His misdeeds had been many. His errors dark as the grime on his unwashed hands. The bell, a twelve inch affair, remained still. His hand unhooked then tightly clasped the chain while his other fingers traced the cross imprint on the bell’s flared side above its rim. Sorrow. What might have been. Indecision stopped him. Thud, thud, thud, his racing heart beat its staccato rhythm as alarm rose in his chest. Better do this thing, he encouraged himself, before I lose my nerve . . . before its too late.

Clang. Clang. Clang. The sound pierced the frozen night air. No. They wouldn’t send him away, not on Christmas Eve. He was sure of it. He listened. Then, the sound of feet tapping on cold stone pavement in the distance; the rustling of clothing, increasing, becoming louder, closer. The hound’s hair began to rise. The dog stood up.

“Who’s there?” A voice inquired.

“A stranger. One of your former brothers.”

“What is your name?”

“Just a friend who will cause no harm. My name will remain undisclosed. I am in need of your hospitality.”

An aging monk peered through the slits. His eyes squinted as they focused on the bent figure. He unlocked the hasp then lifted the steel peg from the ground. The gate swung open with nary a squeak as it offered its path to salvation. The cleric gestured, enter. The stranger followed, then paused, while the great gate closed behind the two men. The hound slunk over to the gate’s pier,  made a circle, then huddled in a round ball for body warmth. The men walked on. No words exchanged between, nor were questions asked.

A wooden door opened. The hallway echoed, their steps made strident slapping sounds in the empty darkness. Wall sconces held lamps lit in somber amber glow. They passed a fountain. His heart jolted uncomfortably. Its memory brought a stinging sensation to the traveler’s eyes. I remember. Oh, how I remember. Regret crashed inside his head. Why, oh why? How stupid he had been. He swept his brow to push the thought aside. That was then, but this was now. They continued on in silence. He had forgotten how incredibly silent this place could be.

“Remain here.” The monk’s vestments swished; then announced his retreat.

“We’ve been expecting you. Come in. Come on in and view our relics.” From the next room a voice came alive; it was masterful, calm, authoritative, rich–and peaceful. The visitor was not given a choice. Enter, he must. The shivering lessened. The visitor rubbed his chapped hands; oh how he wished he had gloves to hide their filth. Guilt and shame collided as he stood there, awaiting what was sure to be asked next. Yes, this was it. He stepped inside the room. The voice continued on, and it commanded truth from him. “Tell me about yourself.”

“Well, I, uh, it’s a long story, not very pretty. I’ve done a lot of wrong things, hurt people, ya know,” the words jumped out in a nervous jabber. He couldn’t quite make them behave. “I came because I want to make my peace. My life is over. I’m wanted . . . and I’m tired. They will find me. Soon.” He gulped; his throat dry. This was going badly. In a whisper the rest was laid bare in a silent plea of regret. “I wanted to see this place one last time, to say,” . . . his voice hesitated . . . “I’m sorry. To seek forgiveness for the wrong I’ve done” . . . “before” . . . His voice trailed off. The words spilled forth from a longing deep inside the haunted man. He saw the impossibility.

It was already too late, he knew that now. It had been a mistake to come. “Please forgive me for intruding. I’ll be leaving now. I shouldn’t’ve come. Really. It was bad of me. This place is not for the likes of me. I’m sorry for troubling you.” A sigh escaped as he hung his head. It was over. His demise was eminent. He’d come prepared. He fingered the metal inside his pocket—yes, it was still there. It would culminate in the early hours of Christmas Day. The end was near. Indeed, all hope was erased. It had been a weak hope to begin with. Yes, this was the end of the line.

“I said, you are expected,” the voice spoke again as if not hearing or concerned with the confessor’s confession. The traveler’s confusion mounted. He glanced at the tall man standing a few feet to his side. How could this be? He’d told no one of his plans.

The room burst into light. It was a museum. The robed figure’s arm swept out to indicate the display cases that circled the room’s perimeter. His gesture commanded, look. In awe the man glanced around him. Horror surfaced at what he gazed. Each glass plane surface held an artifact, not something pleasant but a repulsive image. Their appearance caused the man to retch and to involuntarily step back in confusion. His eyes glanced around. On each glass table was a pink-skinned creature, long dead, denude of fur, it’s head, feet or both removed. Each was mounted to a table surface; their faces were horrible, repulsive gargoyle-like images.

The man gasped. The images seemed to beckon him; Remember this? Remember that thing? The urge to escape was in panic mode, but he remained transfixed, immobile, glued to the spot. Something powerful was at work. What was this? What could it mean? What were these wretched creatures he was being forced to view?

The stranger’s gaze rested on the first creature. What was it? . . .when suddenly, “Poof,” it disappeared. Wha-a-at? His eyes rested on the next image. . . . “Poof,” then it was gone too. Hesitantly his eyes moved to the next table. It was hard to do, their pink-ugliness was revolting even to him. After a few seconds it disappeared too. Gone. His eyes looked from image to image, recoiling at their ugliness, each one remaining motionless until a beam from his eyes joined that of the object until it dissolved into nothingness.

It was odd. Then he came to the last creature, an over-large phantom-freak with repulsive pig-like features. It sat on top of an isolated display case in the back of the room; its exceedingly evil essence caused him to inhale and his breath to catch. The visitor spoke in a fragment of a whisper, commanding it to go away, “You, too.” . . .The thing disintegrated before his eyes and soon was no more. Depletion emptied him of all feeling. What did it mean? The tall robed figure nodded, pleased with him. Yes, well done, his actions indicated approval. There was compassion in the tall man’s eyes and there was warmth and approval in his countenance. An awareness entered into the stranger. It was a transaction. Something was different now. What was it? Gone. It was all gone! ‘They,’ were gone. His guilt, removed. Forgiven. Atoned. Finally . . . finally, peace. Relief flooded the traveler’s being, a flush warmed him from head to toe. All is well that ends well. He had been wise to come.

“You are free to leave or free to stay. It is your choice to make. All are welcome. None are turned away.”

The scraggly hound lifted its head, howled its lonely bay as a train clattered frantically into the silent night. On the other side of the gate, Christmas claimed another miracle.

Peace on Earth.


The Rest of the Story. This story is loosely written from a dream I had that startled and then woke me up. I was in that room with the creatures and a tall robed figure was with me. I saw the ugly pink-skinned creatures, most of them without heads or feet. All were laying on the top of glass display cases. They revolted me. As I looked at each one, it would disappear after a few seconds of my staring. I realized after two or three evaporated into thin air that I was to look at each one until, hopefully, it would disappear. Finally, I came to the ugliest and largest one of all, right next to the door where I could escape. It took longer to dissolve. The robed figure was pleased with me.

When I woke up, I thought long about it. In my mind the mounted creatures represented evil beings, whether demonic or not I did not know. I wondered if it held a message for me, like God using me (or us) to fight in the battle against the evil forces in this world.

Later, I decided to incorporate the idea in a short story about the sinner and his redemption in a modern day parable. In this story, the robed figure is Jesus and the table creatures are the traveler’s past evil deeds. He is repulsed by their ugliness like we should be repulsed by the evilness of our sinful deeds.

In conclusion, Jesus is the one Who heals, forgives and transforms. Remember the reality of this true, living miracle and reason for Jesus Christ entering our world as a human God-man to offer us the way of salvation for the redeeming of our souls.

This is a reposted blog.

What I’ve Learned about Thanksgiving

My Idahoan sister is getting the troupes together for Thanksgiving this year, here in California. I picked her up at the airport today. Three of my cousins and spouses with some of their grown children, my brother and his grown kids and their significant others, my folks, and my sister and her grown kids and son-in-law, and my other sister’s son, my nephew from Oregon and his family are all coming. It will be over thirty in number. I’m bringing the homemade pumpkin pie, homemade applesauce, a slow-baked ham, and who knows what else. Maybe a pecan pie. We’ll have lots of good food.

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Thanksgiving dinner at my house last year. We’re ready to pray.

The festivities are going to be at my folk’s house. It’s on a knoll out in the country, west of the Sacramento River. Mount Lassen and Mount Shasta are visible on a clear day. It is scenic and wonderful. We will eat around 2:00 but everyone will come an hour earlier to help out. I’ll bring Mother from the care home where she is living now. Tables will be connected and tablecloths and china will be set out. After the leisurely meal is  done, we will clear the plates and do the dishes. Dessert will wait for later.

Next comes singing. We will sing hymns and Christian music. My sister who usually plays the piano won’t be here this time, so I’m guessing my nephew or other sister will be on the piano. My sister-in-law will lead with her guitar, or maybe my brother-in-law. Most can sing and we do four-part harmonizing. I sing alto, Mom sings soprano, Dad sings bass, Paul is a baritone, and Juanita is soprano. Everyone else fits in somewhere. My brother-in-law has a nice tenor voice. It’s really quite lovely. My father particularly likes it when we sing as a family. This is what we do at Christmas, but no-one’s coming this year for the celebration.

After the singing, then comes pie. We usually have apple, pumpkin, berry, and lemon meringue…all homemade. We eat pie for like three days after. When desserts are done then it’s time for games like cards, Chinese checkers, dominoes or five straight. We’ll eat snacks and talk, laugh and tease. It is a good thing. Every year we wonder if we are at the end of this, because it can’t last forever. We know that each time we are together it is to be cherished. Last Christmas both our folks were recovering in rehab hospitals, and that is where we had Christmas together, singing in the rehab dining room.

I’ve learned that Thanksgiving is best when shared with people you love. It has a way of warming the heart.

When I was a teen I liked to toss the football with some of my siblings and cousins in my grandparents’ backyard. I had tomboy in me and could throw a decent spiral. When the meal was ready, a few words of thanks would be said. Sometimes we’d all contribute. Grandpa would say grace, and then we’d all dig in. I’d be at the kids table. My cousin could always get his sister to laugh just by looking at her. Later, she and I would play caroms or Rack-O. The family would have a delicious meal together and then kick back the rest of the day. It was what we did and was quite lovely. My cousins’ family drove ten hours to be there, arriving early Thanksgiving morning at my grandparents’ place. They were like best of friends to us. Family is tradition with us.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving Day. I mean that. It is important to remember the good things in life. God has taken us through another year. We are blessed by that even if its challenges were many. We have people who love us. There’s good food to eat. Music fills our souls with melody. Animal friends share their warmth with us. Babies and tots freely give their kisses and loves. Books offer us respite from the daily stuff. Caring friends are there to cheer us along. We see victories day after day, some small and some great.

I’ve learned it is important to celebrate the small successes and enjoy the sweet graces.

Remember to be thankful. Give thanks to God.

Blessings to you and yours,

Norma