My First Maundy Thursday Service

Maundy Thursday 2019

I wrote this record of my impressions after I attended my first ever Maundy Thursday service at a local Anglican Church. The service was a holy reverential remembrance.

The following excerpt is from my book

The Meeting Place: Moments with God at Lookout Point.

-2009-

LAST NIGHT I WENT to a Maundy Thursday church service. It was my first time attending this type of service. The focus was a commemoration, a memorial in a sense, of Jesus’ final hours before his death. Scripture concerning the events of the Upper Room, the Last Supper, were read, the humble act of the foot-washing of the disciples’ feet by Jesus, and the celebration and sharing of the bread and cup, the Holy Eucharist, was observed. Gethsemane, with its garden scene, Christ’s last hours in prayer alone with his heavenly Father, was collectively remembered.

The service focused on Christ’s impending death, highlighting moments that led to the Lord’s death on Calvary’s tree. The first thing I noticed, rather, I felt, was the holy hush, the reverence that filled the room. I listened and felt each transition, worshipping in silence as the sacraments were presented, absorbing the words of the congregants as they spoke in one voice or knelt in worshipful prayer. Toward the beginning of the service, a quiet invitation to participate in “foot-washing” was given, the humble act following the Lord’s example, the priest and deacon washed the feet of the people when they came to the front, one by one. It has been many years since I have witnessed foot-washing in a church, the last time at a one-hundred-year anniversary at my maternal grandmother’s brethren church.

My thoughts took me back to the church of my childhood, in which there was foot-washing as part of a whole day communion service twice a year, the women with women in one room, and men with men in another. I remembered when in my high school years, I participated in a foot-washing service at my paternal grandparents’ brethren church, washing my grandmother’s feet and she washing mine.

Warm memories and quietness centered in me as I watched and listened to the liturgical worship service, an observer on the outside but active spiritually on the inside. The focus now came to the end of Christ’s journey on earth, the crucifixion of his innocent life, the shedding of Christ’s blood. In the form of questions, my thoughts took an interesting turn, random, unbidden in layer upon layer. How can a leader be a servant as Christ was? How can a servant be a leader as Christ was? What did the eyewitnesses experience when they saw Christ die? How fully did they feel the impact of his death? How should we as his people respond to his death?

I reflected on the emptiness—the shroud of darkness when hope grew dim for the world of men, as the mood of the service, with its sadness settled in around us. I thought of Christ and his words to his closest followers; even though Christ had prepared them for his death, their ears were not fully hearing, their eyes unseeing as to its true meaning. As the gloom descended, in complete silence, icons of meaning were gathered and removed from the house of worship, the sanctuary becoming bare of its ornamentation, the cross with its crucifix masked with white linen, the room where we gathered barren of its light. The service concluded with the house lights dimmed, people remaining in their seats, praying and worshipping.

Then, one by one in complete silence, the worshippers departed the church, more fully aware of the stark contrast of happiness departed, the emptiness in a small way like the world with its true Light gone, a cold dank feeling of lost hope. The quiet stripping of the sanctuary serving to heighten an awareness in us of a world without Christ, a dead Christ not yet risen to redeem lost souls. I couldn’t help but think, when hope appeared to be at its weakest state, in reality, hope was being transfigured—through Christ’s sinless death, humble burial, and then, his life transformed into the miracle of resurrected life: death into life. In the end, hope was unleashed, set on fire—the fire of redemption, the fulfilling of Christ’s mission to redeem a fallen people, the purchasing of hope for eternity and for us.

I have been told that if I should visit this same church on an Easter Sunday, I would see it full of light, foliage, and Easter lilies, in glorious celebration of the risen and living Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, in holy adoration for his gift of redemption and atonement. This brings us to the miracle of Christ’s life. What is redemption? It is the redeeming of our lives through Christ’s sinless death, burial, and resurrection. Redemption: Christ’s perfect, sinless, holy life for ours, the purchasing of pardon for all of humankind, all encompassing—past, present, and future generations.

Where There is Peace on Earth

Peace on Earth

“Peace on Earth” by Casting Crowns, on Youtube here

The song keeps playing in my head. Casting Crowns recorded it years ago, a rendition of  “I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day.” This song on their Christmas CD is one of my favorites. It speaks to my soul. The lyrics express the doubt we feel at times. “There is no peace on earth, I said. For hate is strong and mocks the song, Of peace on earth good will to men.” They point to the fact that the world is a mess. How do we relate then to the rebuttal, “God is not dead, nor does He sleep. Peace on earth.”?

“Where have I seen peace on earth this year?” I asked myself three days ago. I could picture only snippets, like in a slide show, piecemeal. You would think that is an easy one, but it isn’t. This year has been anything but peaceful for me. But for God. But for God, despair would be my lot.

For three days the song has played nonstop in my thinking. Over and over I have asked God, where have I seen peace on earth? Blank. Just “blank.” Nothing. I’ve seen it around me, but for me personally? Nothing much.

But then. Pictures began to form.

Peace-Endowed Moments

  • A friend telling me that she’s finally becoming the mother she always wanted to be, after years of not getting it right;
  • Sitting by my mother’s bed, silently weeping, touching her arm and lightly stroking it… knowing this might be my last time with her still living…and it was;
  • Praying in the Vina monastery’s chapel on a Sunday morning. God meeting me there, giving me an extra measure of peace in that sweet sanctuary of peace;
  • Singing with my two sisters for Mom’s memorial, Grandma’s song, “Dearest Mother” and knowing its words were true of my mother;
  • Letting it go. Forgiving the one who wounded me in an area where I feel “less than”…and knowing the healing was in place by the peace that passes all understanding replacing the hurt;
  • Seeing smiles on faces, beauty in nature, star-studded skies, eating good food, singing and reading, writing what’s on my heart.
  • Talking about the struggle and the joy. Praying for friends and them praying for me; listening and talking about important matters, doing life with these precious ones;
  • Holding the grieving person in my arms while they sobbed and we clung together in that understanding of the heart … a connection that needs no words. Five funerals, I’ve attended in recent months, peace was present at all of them.
  • Listening to my father recount his earlier years each night at the dinner table; telling me about his boyhood, life on a dairy farm, going to town with his dad, swimming in their reservoir…filled with spring-fed water, attending to the citrus groves, buying his first car at age 14 that cost $10, adventure with his buds, and so forth.

Peace on earth is not so easy to see when our lives and the world are in turmoil. To be honest, I’m drained. My role this year has been that of assisting and supporting my folks. It has required of me to go deeper in the depths of my being to keep myself in a good space. None of it has been easy. But all of it has been rewarding.

Some days I have drawn upon my Heavenly Father like a much needed resource when overwhelm and insufficiency have caused me to feel weak and vulnerable. Then the beauty of God came in and His loving peace descended on me. The peace is found in the little things and in the God of the little things. He is the Giver. God gives and gives and gives. We receive, receive, and receive. Beauty, grace, love, life, being, all come from Him.

I conclude with these five areas where I have found ‘Peace on Earth’ in my daily experience this year.

Where Peace Lives

  1. LIFE – Life is full of surprising twists and turns. I experience the best of life those times I embrace life and let it flow as it is going to flow instead of allowing pressure and plans to constrain it. God is the author of life and His Word is life to us. We all partake of this amazing gift of life.
  2. LOVE – Love is the key to almost everything. Extending grace out of love is a selfless motivator that speaks life to others. Hard things shut this down, and then I can’t stand it. I reboot the love. Love is a gift from God.
  3. RENEWAL – Aw, how we need renewal, refreshing in our spirit. I love watching this happen in others. They start to get it, to experience it, and then, wow! So precious. This is a gift to the soul.
  4. PEOPLE – People need people, even introverts (hear, hear!). I may seem self-sufficient, but I need you–my new friends, old friends, on-line friends, and family friends. You are a gift to me. It is my desire to be a gift to you.
  5. NATURE – Nature breathes life in me. I love the sunrise, the sunset, walks around the perimeter of my father’s almond orchard, blue skies with fluffy cumulus clouds, mountains to the east, to the west, trees in the valley, the Sacramento River as I drive over it every day, and the flowers and bushes and trees, rock formations and all of nature’s natural topography. Nature is a gift that speaks its life every day.

Blessings to you and peace. Merry Christmas to you and yours.

Norma