Authenticity and God (Going Deeper with God, Part 9)

Intentional God-Focused Living

By looking from the outside in, we can see there is a redemptive cycle at work. This plays out in many of the daily experiences that happen in our lives. There are opportunities and times when God’s love triumphs over loss, where His peace transforms the things of earth into beauties of heaven, when a broken heart mends, and when renewal is accessed through living hope.

PREMISE: God has made us for relationship

GOING DEEPER WITH GOD, LESSON 9

Even in nature we find our minds lift to see the order of life with its ceaseless cycles as part of God’s plan for redeeming all life for His glory. A redemptive scenario is at work every time we know of a tragedy to triumph occurrence. We can find it in the fire of destruction when we witness the mountainsides burning with forest fires, and then a year later we observe that these same hillsides sport new growth with the freshness of renewal. It is God at work within the natural renewal cycle. Death gives over to new life.

QUESTION 1. What stops Christians from wanting relationship with God?

*Answer the question before you continue on.

LIFE IS A REDEMPTIVE STORY

The first step through this door and into an intimate walk with God is to view God with new eyes. God is the Joy-giver, the Healer of our hurts and diseases, and the Re-newer of our minds. But to authenticate this message takes something remarkable and unusual, and speaks of a focused and rejuvenating desire for God. It’s not business as usual. We must experience God in a new way. Resolve is necessary. The empty feeling and our ‘going through the motions’ limited spirituality, needs to be replaced by the presence of God Himself . . .  as we choose to become centered in Him.

In a sense, we will exchange our past spiritual experiences with a new ‘drawing toward God’ experience, and I am not speaking about a surface belief in God. It is heart knowledge in combination with faith and belief in God, for in the heart we find our desires. I believe that for anyone to know God with a growing sense of intimacy, they must first experience God at work in their lives. God must become real to them.

God desires for us to seek Him with hearts full of longing. In return, God can and will satisfy our deepest longings and fill our inner need for belonging. Check out Deuteronomy 4:31 for validation.

The ‘how to’ to open the door and follow God in such a way is to allow ourselves to become vulnerable. We have to let go of self (our box) and trust God to take care of us as we look in the mirror and see the state of our souls and determine to make the necessary changes as we seek to ponder the hidden depths that we quite naturally fear to scrutinize. To do so involves dealing with pain that is in us and whatever is locked tightly away in our memories. It requires renewal of our minds through God’s loving touch.

God is the Great Physician who understands us more than we do ourselves. He helps us see our faulty belief system and our inner hurts, woes, stumbling blocks, areas of bondage and self-protection. Through God’s wise and skillful sword of the Spirit, He penetrates through our layers and barriers to reach us in our place of need (often hidden from view). It may take a broken heart to get our attention sufficiently. In the transition we will transform, morph, from “me” centered, to “God” centered.

“The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken spirit and a contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.” Psalm 51:17.

“Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.” Psalm 51:10.

There are many scriptures that confirm a need for brokenness and humility before God. I am not sure it is possible to experience God in this way until we have yielded ourselves in brokenness and humility before Him as we humble ourselves and see our own depraved thinking and self-stuff. As a result, we are able to open our empty hearts until they fill to overflowing with His love. We have moved our natural self-serving bent out of the way. In that vacuum, God has given us His living water for our thirsty souls. It is a supernatural work of God in us and a spiritual quest of grand proportions

QUESTION 2– Is it worth it to have a loving relationship with God? Why?

*Answer the question before you continue on.

HOW IT WORKS

We may feel that God has given up on the world. The reverse is actually true. He sees a harvest field, ripe and ready, waiting for His touch, where we may see a hopeless field of weeds, not worth saving or not as possible. God seeks His own and has not quit His business of saving souls and bringing many sons to glory. And God doesn’t quit what He starts. In outworking His salvation in us, He has a plan for us to follow. But to do so requires an action on our part. God waits for us to ask before He will act.

Only God can remove our blinders so that we can see. Sins, fears, shameful experiences, poor choices, past hurts, and hardness will keep us in a limited spiritual box, a framework in which we are unable to be open with God. In addition, the blinders keep us from knowing ourselves and who we really are. And in this there is a mystery. It is as if we are a part of a puzzle with one piece missing, and that one piece is us. We need God to show us His divine plan for us so we can live our lives in God’s grace and power with a renewed mind and joyful spirit. Then our puzzle piece fits into its place. “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me…” Psalm 139:23, 24. Jeremiah 17:9, 10, 14 also speaks to this end. It involves an active seeking.

Our spiritual journey began at salvation through Christ, His redemptive Presence in our lives. That was when we first recognized God at work in our lives. God had been working behind the scenes to draw us to Himself. He says He calls us. Ever since we first became aware of our spiritual need of a Savior, we began to experience a deep longing, which resides within us and that stirs and grows the more we seek God .

To take it to the next level, we begin to ask God for His healing and an awareness of our sin and sinful actions both past and present (unless already confronted). With this comes a desire for Jesus to reveal Himself to us. What will this gain us? We will find our capacity to receive God in fullness of love increases the more we seek Him and the more we get acquainted with Him. As a result, we begin to follow our Guide in the joy of close fellowship. The inner desire grows in us, this desire is for a oneness, a unity, a relationship that is genuine, pure, unadulterated, and real. This is life. Remember, Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. He who follows him will not walk in darkness but will have the light of Life.

On a side-note, we are attracted to life. The day and age we live in is a culture that has a weird dance with death, it seems to encourage death when you look at it objectively. With an over-absorption with death, we find life as less fulfilling, and it is has a way of  limiting the beauty of life. We must counter this message of death. We should pursue what is life- giving. Have you noticed how life is found in the light of the eyes? God gives life with His love. A person with the joy of God has an inner glow and you can see it in their eyes. The eyes speak. It is Christ-centeredness.

QUESTION 3Have you ever known someone who has this light of God that shines forth? Did it arrest your attention? What are/were they like?

The process of seeking and finding God is a sort of baptizing by fire. As we seek God’s face, He begins a sifting process of removing the wheat from the chaff, the silver from the dross, the impurities from our lives. Critical to this process is access to the Godhead; Jesus Christ, God the Father, and the Holy Spirit. They meet us at the point of pain, repentance, and even conflicted emotions within the battlefield of flesh vs. spirit resistance. It is through this we will know the truth, and we will begin to become free from the lies and sin which have blinded and held us captive, unable to sense God as a real, true, and loving Father.

Many parts of our lives have blinded us from experiencing Christ as our Propitiation and Kinsman Redeemer. The sanctification we receive at salvation, Christ in us, has an on-going element. The qualities of Christ and His holiness become humble love through Christ while His life continually changes us from the inside, out. Our offensive traits leave bit by bit as Christ becomes our all-in-all. The opening statements in this lesson will not be true of us when the goodness and holy aspects of Christ’s Spirit and God’s holiness reign unfettered within us. 

We have some work to do in order to be set free, a purifying process of looking inward and upward. God helps us in this. By the way, this continues on throughout life.

HOMEWORK ASSIGNMENT: Ask God to begin a purifying work in your heart.

  • Ask God for truths as He reveals the lies about yourself you have believed for many years.
  • Ask for strength to receive what He has for you.
  • Seek a sister or brother in Christ to share these revelations as God works in you.
  • If you are fearful or know you have deep scars and wounds, seek Christian counsel to support you through this process.
  • Expect there to be spiritual warfare. You have been in bondage and the “spiritual” facade with its pretending will be revealed and released.
  • Meditate on Christ at the cross as you seek to share in his sufferings. Include reading gospel accounts of Christ’s death, burial, and resurrection. Again, put yourself with Christ, at the garden, at the cross, and at the tomb. Imagine your joy as Mary sees her risen Lord as he reveals himself to her.

Jeremiah 29:12-14-“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord.”

Romans 12:1-2-“Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—This is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing, and perfect will.”

Galations 2:20-“I have been crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life, I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”

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Look at this visual. Think through your life. Ask God to nudge you to deal with areas you’ve been ignoring or have buried.

A COMMENT IS IN-ORDERIf you truly seek God you may be in for some surprises.

The floodgates may open. Pain may revisit you in your wakeful moments. You may experience a great watershed moment. It may take minutes, days, or even weeks, to release the pain of your past, your hurt with its corresponding wounds to self, to open an awareness of your own falsity in pockets of pride and self-righteousness, and to expose areas of harbored unforgiving thoughts found deep in your inner being. It is a painful process but a healing experience.

Simultaneously you may find yourself outstretched before God in love, harmony, and humbleness with a greater affection and awe of God such as you’ve never experienced or known before. I remember Beth Moore saying that for weeks she spent her days prostrate before God from the time her children went to school until they returned, so great was her finding of God and desire for Him. I could identify with her statement. When God gets your heart and you want more of Him, a thirst develops in you that seeks God with all its passion. It is one of the most beautiful of all God-to-human experiences. I wish it for you, my dear friends.

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Conversations with Emily (5)

“It doesn’t mean anything. None of it matters anymore. I don’t seem to matter to God, so why should I care?  Tired of caring…not worth it anymore. I don’t have anything worth saying” the message read. Of course it mattered.

It Doesn’t Matter Anymore

September 23, 20**

9/23, 6:18am
Me:
How are you doing? (I’m on ch 6)

9/23, 6:21am
Emily:
i just want to stop crying all the time
i reached out to 2 diff therapists today…i need some help…i need to do something different if I’m gonna make it through whatever this is

9/23, 6:28am
Me:
Yes, that’s good. I will pray that they will be of help. Have you heard of theophostic ministry (counseling)?

9/23, 6:28am
Emily:
no…what is it

9/23, 8:11am
Emily:
ya doesn’t matter…found out from one of them i can’t afford to reach out for professional help

9/23, 8:20am
Me:
It is an approach where the counselor is a praying partner. They pray that God will reveal the lie believed that is at the heart of the person’s internal/emotional pain. They pray while the counselee is seeking God. God is the one who reveals it and heals it. I believe in it because that is what He did for me (on my own with no counsel).

He took me to the point of my first step into emotional wounding, and then He showed me that He was there with me, and somehow in that process, He stepped in and removed its hold over me. There are books on this but I don’t have any right now.

9/23, 8:23am
Emily:
it doesn’t matter anymore

9/23, 8:24am
Me:
What does that mean?

9/23, 8:25am
Emily:
doesn’t mean anything
none of it matters anymore
i don’t seem to matter to God so why should i care

9/23, 8:26am
Me:
I’m listening.

9/23, 8:26am
Emily:
tired of caring…not worth it anymore
i don’t have anything worth saying

9/23, 8:27am
Me:
Caring is what shows you’re alive.

9/23, 8:38am
Me:
We all have something to say. The misleading thing about telling everybody that we have something to say is that if the timing is not right, women will feel defeated. I have feared this, that women would begin speaking who are not in the right moment for it. Or they will fabricate to become a part of a movement. All we learn takes time and implementation of trust and truth. There are times when all we can do is hold on for dear life. Been there so many times, bearing my pain. Do not regret the hard/bad times. They are shaping you in ways that cannot come in the easy life.

You are a special woman, Emily. I’m sure you’ve said those words to others, too. The truth is, you don’t feel it deep inside. You’re tired of it all. I will say this, God is with you even now when He seems silent or uncaring. Tell Him like it is. No pretending. Get it ALL out. Then let Him come in and touch you with His quiet voice. You will have to relax and seek. Become still in your soul. I love you in Jesus, dear Emily. Cling to your Savior. Look for two or three graces today. Write them down.

9/23, 9:11am
Emily:
so r u saying i shouldn’t be saying anything cuz I’m not ready or others aren’t ready to hear what i have to say? or r u saying I’ve fabricated something?

9/23, 10:50am
Me:
Nothing about you. I just get worried that some damage might occur. I just don’t want anyone to feel compelled to speak out of pressure. I’ve thought of telling Jennifer (author) this but then thought may be it would not be welcome or seen as a downer. I wonder if some feel that way (in the book launch group).

I do think you should speak when it’s in your heart to do so. The fabricating is just a guess that it’s possible to happen at some point. I guess I shouldn’t have said it. I’m sorry. It scares me that it came across that I meant you. At this point, you’ve not opened up the thing that brings you pain, and I’m not asking you to. I only want to be an encouragement, a praying friend, to help where I can. I want you to know that God put you on my heart and I’m thankful that He did.

9/23, 10:52am
Me:
The fabricating, happens at some point with some others. Even the super spiritual thing is a mask we all can wear, has its own danger. I’m including myself in this.

9/23, 10:59am
Emily:
Im sorry i took it personally…usually i have thicker skin than that…
I’m not myself lately
have u finished ch 6 yet?

9/23, 11:05am
Me:
Relationship is the Starting Point, that’s what I just finished writing, it’s on my blog (old blog post re-posted on this site). Think you might find it interesting. Sorry, but haven’t got back to reading. I promise to soon and will let you know.

9/23, 11:05am
Emily:
nothing to be sorry about…just wondering
let me know when u finish 6 and we can talk more bout the book

9/23, 11:17am
Me:
I will. Gotta run now . Hang in there.

9/23, 11:20am
Emily:
k

9/23, 9:18pm
Me:
I read it and also Ch 8. Amazing stories. So many tragedies. But many blessings as well.

JUST PLAIN SCARED

Those words from “Emily” show that she’s struggling big time. What would you say to Emily? That’s a hard one. The main thing she needs to know is that someone cares, and that person is unbiased and neutral. Basically, a safe person.

The next Emily post is powerful. You’ll want to continue if you have the time. Emily and I get to the place where I show her what it is to open up to God with the hard stuff.

The conversation continues.

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